Gems from My Journals (July, August)
Eh, my Real Gems are too scandalous (ohlala) for August. So, you get these:
“On the walk home a dude yelled to me, ‘You right thick, Girl!’ from his car window.”
“Worked at IHOP and then Barnes & Noble. That’s where I discovered quite suddenly where my Jesus Toast story was going — it was going somewhere without Jesus and without Toast.”
“I even basically fit into my Zebra Pants.”
“Another day of casual bobbing.”
“Bobbing in the morning, afternoon, and evening.”
“Oh, and I am, perhaps for the first time in my life — TAN!”
“I was over my yearly budget… by $1.72.”
“I was on my game — FUNNY! Sometimes I can do that when I meet new people.”
“Tired, needed to curl up, cramps. A lot of pain. Made it to my class - barely. Went home, curled up.”
“[It] went much, much, much better. Or, the same, but I didn’t cry afterwards.”
Yay, I think Crystal Renn (on right) is awesome.
Gems from my Journal (June)
“Why does everyone think I’m nice? I wish I were nicer than I actually am.”
“C___ & I chatted about personality types on the down hills & huffed & puffed on the ups.”
“Woke at who-knows-what-time in our ghetto campsite entrenched in Mountain Laurel.”
“Slow, cranky start to morning. I was already tired of my goddamn nuts.”
“Felt sad about nothing and wanted to do nothing.”
“Determined to write, I did anything but.”
“Spent too much time on ASL and thinking of ideas for a movie about sock puppets who are MFA students (us).”
“Around 4 went to Barnes & Noble and had a latte & brownie (which I wish I could re-live eating again & again).”
Attempted to sign Iron & Wine’s Trapeze Swinger, since I was hoping so badly someone on YouTube would do it! Errr, I wish I had Deaf friends so I could practice & be better! It’s sort of a part ASL / PSE version. Hard to do total ASL if you are going along with the song.
Gems from my Journals
“I feel guilty for not being able to condense myself down into fewer notebooks.”
“What we like about each other is that we hang out with each other.”
“I relax people because I am so anxious that I make people calm me down and that makes them feel in control and confident.”
“Things I FAILED at today: writing, reading, being productive, limiting myself on the internet, not crying, not watching too much tv, not putting myself down.”
”____ told a story about abortion flags that had us in tears, laughing.”
“Tried to write. Finally I gave up and watched American Idol.”
“I avoided writing all day.”
“I got a weird painting of a dog and sunglasses with a pink background and Star Wars sheets which I promptly sewed into a dress.”
“Then I went to Target for rechargeable batters and came back with two flowered dresses and one flowered jumpsuit.”
“I took a masterful shower.”
(These are from my April/May notebooks.)





